The first part of the year is over.. Prelim 1! I did quite badly for the exams.. To be honest, i was a bit sad about my results.. I was sad not only because i did badly but also because i disappointed my adopted mother(Ms Khai).. She really put in a lot of effort in pushing me to do my revision.. She kept encouraging me to work hard.. I did put in effort for her and myself, but it was just too little to excel in prelim 1.. Of course no point talking about it because it is over.. On a positive note, now i know that the amount of effort that i put in prelim 1 was not enough, i will work harder in prelim 2.. I have a lot to say cause i have not blogged for months.. But i will make it short and sweet..

There is a question that makes me think for a few weeks, and i still don't know the right answer.. The decision that you make should be base on what you wanna do or you have to take other people feelings into consideration?? It is a very easy question for some of you here, but to people like me it is a real difficult question.. I really don't know what is the right answer.. If you think decision that you make should be base on what you wanna do.. It seems like you are a selfish person, you don't care about the feeling of others including people whom are important to you.. You believe in living your own life.. You love yourself more than you love others and your happiness is the most important..

If you think otherwise, it means that you care about the feelings of your love ones.. You are selfless, but it is at the expense of your own happiness.. Maybe you think that your happiness is base on the happiness of people around you.. But be honest with yourself.. Is it always true?? Isn't there any moment that you just wanna do your own things and ignore people feelings?? On the other hand, if you are ignoring people feelings to do what you wanna do than may i ask will you be truly happy with what you are doing?? It seems wrong no matter which choice you make.. Difficult isn't it??

2 days ago was my birthday.. Yeah!! Last year i celebrated my birthday in a hotel.. A hotel buffet!!! I thought that it will be the best birthday that i had till i start earning.. I have never expected that this year, my celebrations were ten times better and the number of gifts that i received were just amazing.. I received a fossil wallet and watch, Zara shirt, a shirt from messy, CK perfume, good chocolate and a total of $300.. Ms Khai bought a cake to celebrate my birthday during recess time!! My Bros treated me dinner at Swensens yesterday.. Somebody say WOW!! LOL! The gifts were more than ten times of what i received last year.. I was so happy.. I really want to thank Ms Khai for making it happen.. It will never be so exciting and surprising without her.. Indeed, it was memorable and i will never forget.. I am really happy and touched..

Now i am very eager to grow up.. I know that 17 is already consider very old, but i want to be older.. An adult age.. There are a hell lot of things i wanna do.. I want to maximize my life to the fullest but before i can do that i need a legal age.. I just wanna grow up now!! Can't wait to do what i have always want to do but cannot do.. To bear the responsibilities that i need to bear as a man!! And to have high education level so that i can earn good money to travel around the world!! Ms Khai has really inspires me to travel.. The stories of her traveling were just too exciting.. She always wished that i could maximize my life and enjoy it as much as possible.. So i created a simple equation.. Happening and exciting life= money+above 18!! It all comes together.. A lot of adults told me that i should enjoy my youth because i will regret not enjoying it when i grow up and being young will be the happiest time of my life and It is stressful to be an adult.. I also tell them that being young is boring and the grass always look greener on the other side.. Of course i want to grow both on the inside and outside.. Sounds wrong? I mean physically and mentally..

Turning 18 next year!! I really can't wait!! Pub, clubs and the world.. I will be coming real soon!! Now is the time to work extra hard to get my O level cert.. Cause i don't only want to be a thinker i want to be a dower as well.. :) It will be perfect if i can spend 1 or 2 years studying overseas, i will make it happen!!

Kok tiong | 5/27/2010 05:51:00 PM