Oh man.. I am here to revive this blog of mine.. It has been such a long time since i updated it!! Did a lot of things this few weeks.. I am happy of the result Peirce basketball team achieved.. This time round i am not preaching.. I am sharing, sharing my life, family and people that are important to me.. :)

I will start with my life.. Life have ups and downs.. But who really experiences the ups and downs before.. To me, i am glad cause i have experienced both before.. When i was younger i didn't have the opportunity to wear nice clothing eat nice food.. Reason one is because i didn't know how to enjoy life when i was young, so i did not chase after all these enjoyment that i am supposed to have as a child.. Another reason was because my family can't afford to provide for my wants.. It would be really fortunate if i can have 3 meals a day.. Am i ashamed?? I am in the past, who would want people to know that they are poor.. But now i am not ashamed at all because Ms Khai told me that there is nothing to be ashamed about cause it is not my fault.. Remember when i was young i learned to eat food like plain rice with plain water or plain porridge with soy sauce for lunch or dinner.. Thinking back i am quite happy because how many people in the world ate these food before??

But when i am in Sec 3 everything started to change.. I learned to save, and i began to save a lot of money.. I started buying clothes for myself and tried to pamper myself more by eating all kinds of food that i wanted to try in the past but never had a chance to.. Till now, money to me is not important and i am not calculative as a person.. These are some values i have obtained during the poor periods of my life..

My family.. One word to describe my family.. MESS!! It is in a huge mess.. Quarrels, fights, disloyalty.. To me my family only gave me worries, fears and insecurity..I started to lost the connection i had with the family.. But things are better for the last 8-10 months, but now it is worse!! I am badly affected by it.. The most important part of all our life! But since last night i had think it through.. I can't change the cards i am dealt, i can only play my hand.. Now is to get used to what i am not used to.. And hope for a better change!! But i am still thankful for what my family have given me, making me a person of values.. Not selfish, stingy and won't think of taking advantage of people!! I can't choose which family i fall in, but i know GOD put you in a type of family for a purpose..

People that are important to me.. Ms Khai!! Having her is really such a joy and relieve.. Having her makes me feel that all i am experiencing now is trivial.. She shows cares concern and love.. She is like my own flesh and blood mother, i wished to but unfortunately she is not..:( Someone that i am comfortable in telling everything and anything that many people will keep it as a deep secret.. I felt so guilty when i am unable to make her happy.. But right now, i can only say she is the most important person in my life.. I am glad to know such a great person like her.. :)

'People don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care' :) Everything will be fine!

Kok tiong | 4/03/2010 09:25:00 AM